posted by ![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
laurainlimbo at 08:17am on 13/12/2005
laurainlimbo at 08:17am on 13/12/2005I decided to totally overhaul my journal's image. also I am going to try to put more images (hopefully photos) directly on the entries so its more interesting. Its almost the new year, and I want to change what I write on here too - make my entries more snappy and not so lengthy! I welcome feedback . . .
I was pretty much awake off and on last night = between my restless cat and my restless husband, I couldn't sleep! So I got up at 6, ate breakfast, and decided to change my journal layout. now I'm feeling quite sleepy, but should resist the temptation to go back to bed. there are things I should do, even though I don't have a life anymore.
I've decided that I just don't understand people at all. It seems that when I returned here in the spring, people wanted to see me (my former students, teachers I worked with, etc.), but now that I've been her for awhile, the welcome has worn off and I might as well not even be living here anymore. Case in point: There's this former student of mine who kept in touch with me after I left Japan in 2000. When I returned here in April, she asked me to help her study for tests that she was taking to become a junior high English teacher. Of course I agreed to help her, once here at my house and several times through emails. She was one of my favorite students, very sweet and very good at English, so I didn't hesitate to help her and enjoyed the correspondence. She passed her tests, and was very thankful to me. We met a couple times more, most recently at the end of October for dinner. At that time, we tentatively planned to see the Harry Potter movie together when it came out a month later. But a week before the movie came out, I wrote to her telling her that I would be going with my husband because it was easier (I don't drive and would have to spend money to go by train to meet her all the way in Shimizu - 30 minutes from here - then have M come and pick me up, etc.) I didn't hear from her, so wrote to her again. She finally wrote back, only once, saying she had been sick and that we would meet another time - that it was fine for me to go with Masahiko to the movie. But I sensed that she was angry with me (can you sense that from email?), so I wrote again apologizing for changing the plan (though in my mind it was tentative and I hadn't heard from her anyway), and saying I hoped we would get together again. But its been 3 weeks now and she hasn't written - and I even sent her a Christmas card by email (and I know she picked it up) and not one thank you or acknowledgement. She doesn't seem like the type to hold a grudge, so I just don't know why she won't contact me. Its sad, but I guess I'll survive! I've also lost touch with another of my former students who wrote to me constantly when I was in the states (she was in California at the time) and she even came to visit me in Chicago. But now that I'm back here, she hasn't contacted me in about 4 months!
anyway, I shouldn't be so negative . . . everything happens for a reason, in my opinion, so I will just focus on what I have and let everything else go.
I was pretty much awake off and on last night = between my restless cat and my restless husband, I couldn't sleep! So I got up at 6, ate breakfast, and decided to change my journal layout. now I'm feeling quite sleepy, but should resist the temptation to go back to bed. there are things I should do, even though I don't have a life anymore.
I've decided that I just don't understand people at all. It seems that when I returned here in the spring, people wanted to see me (my former students, teachers I worked with, etc.), but now that I've been her for awhile, the welcome has worn off and I might as well not even be living here anymore. Case in point: There's this former student of mine who kept in touch with me after I left Japan in 2000. When I returned here in April, she asked me to help her study for tests that she was taking to become a junior high English teacher. Of course I agreed to help her, once here at my house and several times through emails. She was one of my favorite students, very sweet and very good at English, so I didn't hesitate to help her and enjoyed the correspondence. She passed her tests, and was very thankful to me. We met a couple times more, most recently at the end of October for dinner. At that time, we tentatively planned to see the Harry Potter movie together when it came out a month later. But a week before the movie came out, I wrote to her telling her that I would be going with my husband because it was easier (I don't drive and would have to spend money to go by train to meet her all the way in Shimizu - 30 minutes from here - then have M come and pick me up, etc.) I didn't hear from her, so wrote to her again. She finally wrote back, only once, saying she had been sick and that we would meet another time - that it was fine for me to go with Masahiko to the movie. But I sensed that she was angry with me (can you sense that from email?), so I wrote again apologizing for changing the plan (though in my mind it was tentative and I hadn't heard from her anyway), and saying I hoped we would get together again. But its been 3 weeks now and she hasn't written - and I even sent her a Christmas card by email (and I know she picked it up) and not one thank you or acknowledgement. She doesn't seem like the type to hold a grudge, so I just don't know why she won't contact me. Its sad, but I guess I'll survive! I've also lost touch with another of my former students who wrote to me constantly when I was in the states (she was in California at the time) and she even came to visit me in Chicago. But now that I'm back here, she hasn't contacted me in about 4 months!
anyway, I shouldn't be so negative . . . everything happens for a reason, in my opinion, so I will just focus on what I have and let everything else go.
There are no comments on this entry. (Reply.)