it's not life that matters but the journey...

just in case anyone is reading . . . I'm still alive.   I had so many things to write about on here, but then I got busy (what a concept!) over the New Year's holiday.  finally had a day yesterday to just rest and get caught up on writing, but somehow the day was gone before I did anything practical and useful.  scary thing is I can't even remember what I did yesterday rather than make a lesson plan for the school (I have just one more month of working there) and send out tons of emails.  and funny thing  - my email box was empty today even though I've been sending out tons of emails.  not funny as much as sad, really...

I was depressed before the New Year turned, but that's turned to anxiety because a big big decision has finally been made about my future.  And because of that decision I feel a big burden has been lifted from me, and I can breathe better.  But at the same time, now I'm very stressed and anxious about the things that need to be done to see this decision come to its fruition.

I've only told a few people of this decision so far, and don't want to write much until things have really been worked out... if you want to know what's going on, feel free to ask me.  meanwhile I have to get back to my originally planned out 2006 schedule:  reading, studying, writing, making kids' lessons, and exercising. 

and somewhere in there I have to change my entire life!