it's not life that matters but the journey...

well the snow lasted two days - it only settled for the first few hours on Thursday, then turned very wet and was off and on until it stopped late in the day Friday. The sun came out today, and all the snow is gone. It was fun while it lasted, but the cold has remained - its very very cold here. and to think a few days ago, I thought we wouldn't get any winter. silly me... It is very unusual though to have this much snow in this part of Japan at this time of the year. But that's really a symptom of how much the earth is out of balance (global warming, record hurricanes, tsunamis, earthquakes, etc.) Japan in general hasn't seen so much snow in over 50 years - up north in Niigata they actually had 4 meters!! some people couldn't even get out of their houses.

I think I'm coming down with something - I've been sneezing and i have a sore throat. maybe its a reaction to the weather, or the ton of stress I'm under lately regarding my decision(which is quickly turning to indecision and apprehension). I'm already starting to have second thoughts regarding this decision, but its already been set in motion and I can't really hesitate now. plus things can't continue the way they have been, so something has to change. its just scary to think about everything that has to be done - and about such a big change. and while I really won't miss certain things about my current lifestyle (too much free time, lack of independence, sharing a kitchen and a bathroom...), there are some small things I will miss too: (lots of free time, proximity to Mt. Fuji, my awesome room ...)

I just don't know anymore, really - though I should know very soon.