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laurainlimbo at 01:36pm on 28/02/2006
laurainlimbo at 01:36pm on 28/02/2006How does everyone like this other icon I got from Jessica! I love it! (and don't you love Masahiko's cool Hokkaido cowboy hat?- he plans to wear it for playing the blues=)
its such a dreary blah day today. we haven't actually seen the sun for a few days, now, and its starting to get to me... and I always thought I was one of those people who didn't get affected by the weather! but I just feel lonely and sad, and like my cat is my only friend here! (I know its not true, but I just feel that way...)
today I had a new student come about starting a class here. Her name is Namiko and she appears to be in her late '20s or early '30s, and I think single. She was referred by one of the moms of the kids I teach. Of course I had to tell her that we are thinking of returning to America, possibly in April, and I felt so guilty. These people are so nice, and they want to learn English, but I have to keep remembering that I'm not obligated to them or anything. I have to think about what's best for me (and my relationship, which is slowly disintegrating), and I think that its best not to stay in this house or this town... but I've said all that before, haven't I?
and this afternoon, I have the kids class; and since I already told that lady (who is friends with one of the moms), I know that I will have to tell those moms about our plans too. I'm not looking forward to it, but it will be over quickly, and then I can focus on actually making some concrete plans. I still haven't found an apartment to commit to but I need to soon so I can get airplane tickets too! I don't even want to think about this move, but I guess I'd better start...
oh, I guess I'll end with something positive. Last night I printed out the 60 or so pages of text that I wrote last spring (the foundation of a novel that I was planning), and I started editing it! I have been reading a couple of those "how to write a damn good novel" help books, and it really inspired me to start reworking this book. I have a lot of work to do, but at least I've already started and have characters and some semblance of a story. I just need to really figure out what my premise is.
and that makes me think of a request: since so many of the people on my f'list are writers, would anyone be willing to read my "draft" chapters and my characters bios and stuff and give me ideas? I would love the feedback!!
well, I hope everyone has a great day, and a great week! *hugs to everyone*
its such a dreary blah day today. we haven't actually seen the sun for a few days, now, and its starting to get to me... and I always thought I was one of those people who didn't get affected by the weather! but I just feel lonely and sad, and like my cat is my only friend here! (I know its not true, but I just feel that way...)
today I had a new student come about starting a class here. Her name is Namiko and she appears to be in her late '20s or early '30s, and I think single. She was referred by one of the moms of the kids I teach. Of course I had to tell her that we are thinking of returning to America, possibly in April, and I felt so guilty. These people are so nice, and they want to learn English, but I have to keep remembering that I'm not obligated to them or anything. I have to think about what's best for me (and my relationship, which is slowly disintegrating), and I think that its best not to stay in this house or this town... but I've said all that before, haven't I?
and this afternoon, I have the kids class; and since I already told that lady (who is friends with one of the moms), I know that I will have to tell those moms about our plans too. I'm not looking forward to it, but it will be over quickly, and then I can focus on actually making some concrete plans. I still haven't found an apartment to commit to but I need to soon so I can get airplane tickets too! I don't even want to think about this move, but I guess I'd better start...
oh, I guess I'll end with something positive. Last night I printed out the 60 or so pages of text that I wrote last spring (the foundation of a novel that I was planning), and I started editing it! I have been reading a couple of those "how to write a damn good novel" help books, and it really inspired me to start reworking this book. I have a lot of work to do, but at least I've already started and have characters and some semblance of a story. I just need to really figure out what my premise is.
and that makes me think of a request: since so many of the people on my f'list are writers, would anyone be willing to read my "draft" chapters and my characters bios and stuff and give me ideas? I would love the feedback!!
well, I hope everyone has a great day, and a great week! *hugs to everyone*
lonely
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