laurainlimbo: (dramaqueen)
posted by [personal profile] laurainlimbo at 11:53pm on 02/03/2006
Well, its midnight here in the land of the rising sun (and no its not rising now - hee!), and I'm still awake. I was up until 2 a.m. last night - Masahiko got in late from practicing, and I was watching some cool stuff (an X-Files show, and the first episode of the Showtime program "Weeds" that I was able to see, thanks to [profile] gothicautumn03 ). I was quite tired today, and it looks like I will be tired again tomorrow. Oh well! The good news is that my backache is entirely gone! I don't have a clue what caused it, but I don't have pain anymore, and I am so happy!

And now let me get serious for just a minute: I realized after my post yesterday that I am really spending too much time on this journal whining and complaining about my life. My last few posts have really been depressing, even though I haven't intended them to be. When I came here almost ao year ago, I started this journal to record my adventures in Japan (which I have had quite a few), and to make observations about the culture (which I haven't done enough of lately). But lately this journal has turned into a place where I am recording not so much what is happening to me, but what is not happening. And that isn't good. I am doubting myself and my life too much. I have to take control of my life, and start getting more motivated, rather than just talking about how I'm not motivated. Its so silly! I should just move onwards and upwards, and stop worrying so much.

Easier said than done, of course, but I have to try!

tomorrow, Masahiko is going to Tokyo to play a gig with a group of musicians he just recently met (except for one who was his original guitar teacher more than 10 years ago). It will be a lot of fun for him - and I wish that I could go to Tokyo! But I have to teach! And after my teaching in Shimizu, I will meet my friend Naomi for dinner and possibly see "Walk the Line" - yay!! I was going to meet another friend, Akiko, but she canceled. It will be nice to get out again!

well, that is all for now... good night and pleasant dreams (well, most of you are just waking up now, but by the time I get back online, you will all be sleeping - or you should be!)
Mood:: 'determined' determined

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