it's not life that matters but the journey...

I got to work very early this morning because I have to leave for a doctor's appt at 11:15 - but when I got here I was told that our database program is down (it was down for two hours the other day too) - and there's literally nothing we can do here without the database. so we are getting paid to "play on the internet". That's probably the first and last time I'll hear that at work! Yay!

So I thought I'd update on my emotional condition. I'm feeling much better this morning - after another hour of "Six Feet Under" and a great night's sleep, I woke up feeling much more positive. Boy I was really super down last night. I just felt so icky, and it affected my emotions and made me blow things out of proportion. I guess I'm too sensitive, and I need to step back and just accept it when things don't work out. It's all part of life. People are people (wasn't that a song?), and they will always be wrapped up in their own lives, and therefore not always reliable there when you need them. I guess that's why we should value our family and the close friendships that we do have, and just hang on to them. And also we need to be comfortable with ourselves, which I am most of the time. I mean I ventured out to Japan for two years by myself, lived in a small town where I didn't speak the language or understand much of what was happening around me, and I've even traveled in foreign countries alone. So what am I complaining about? I blame this "infection" or whatever it is that I have had for a week. Hopefully after the doctor's visit today it will be better, and I will be a happier soul.

I've decided that I need to start making my journals have some point. It's not that pointless posts are bad, but I just want to have some focus. So, I plan to start writing more about movies, more about the things I'm reading and philosophies on life, and also comparisons between Japan and America. I've found a ton of differences lately that are quite interesting...

so, I'm off to reply to comments. and hopefully I'll be able to actually do some "work" before I leave today:)