aaawww hun, Im so sorry to hear thats things arent great!

Yup people let you down, but I suppose thats something you can always rely on, (if thats any consulation!) but you are right poeple dont change..

Prehapes its coz some of us are afraid of any kind of change, we like our routines, not rocking the boat, the thing is thats when the monotony of life really hits you!!

I know you say you like your independance, thats cool so do I , but I do know that sometimes I'm TO independant for my own good and I feel sometimes I maybe cut myself off to my own detriment you know!!

Its a real task for me sometimes to get all ready and raring to go for a night out, I always want to cancel!!
But I do find most of the time I know Im just being a moron for thinking like that, coz I have such a great time.. Its the way Im built and I have accepted that...
Maybe you just have to settle and accept that for the moment at least, this is what you life will be like, but Im sure there will be a point where it will change for the better, just be positive, keep smiling, good things happen to those who wait after all!!

Sending Hugs across the atlantic!!

Oh and a picture of Jake.... again!