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posted by [personal profile] laurainlimbo at 07:56pm on 13/06/2006
i'm really in bad shape. all day today I was so tired, and I'm not really sure why. I decided to drive to work, and when I arrived I had this total panicky feeling that I had left the garage open! so I called M and woke him up (he had played last night until 2!), and I had to wait until he woke up from his sleep before I could rest easy. He checked, and I had actually closed the garage. relief! but why was my brain playing tricks on me?

then all day I kept having trouble focusing at work, and I was second guessing myself on everything, even things I know how to do, and I kept getting overly stressed about little things. I was just not able to concentrate - I wanted to curl up under my desk and sleep.

Why?

I guess I'll go to bed early tonight. It's not like I have anything to do since Netflix didn't get my DVD to me today! they said it would arrive Tuesday (today) and for the first time, it wasn't there! Screw them! So maybe I'll get two DVD's tomorrow - or maybe not!

I can't believe how much I miss my two LJ friends who have disappeared. I do know that [personal profile] serialbathera doesn't have a computer at home now, so I understand why she hasn't posted. still I miss her!

but I don't know what's happened to [personal profile] dawnie1970 - she's been gone for so long now, and her last message was not good. I sent her a letter, so hopefully she'll get it soon. if anyone knows that she's okay, please let me know. I miss her so much!

my husband is out again tonight playing music - this time at Blue Chicago downtown. he had to procure parking on the street so he wouldn't have to pay a valet, so he left super early. leaving me alone all night. *sigh* But on a positive note, he is making money, and he is meeting some great people lately. He might have an opportunity to teach some guitar lessons at some posh shop where lots of famous musicians shop! and he is always meeting new musicians, so I know that great things are going to happen for him.

now how about me?
Mood:: 'drained' drained
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posted by [identity profile] flyingichthyo.livejournal.com at 02:33am on 14/06/2006
I *hate* it when Brain plays tricks on me. She can be such a fucking trickster.

I hope you feel better!

::hugs::
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posted by [identity profile] laurainlimbo.livejournal.com at 02:35am on 14/06/2006
thanks! I'm feeling okay, I'm just so gosh darned tired...

or should that be fucking tired? that's better!

*hugs*
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posted by [identity profile] xitsmejessica.livejournal.com at 03:17am on 14/06/2006
Awh....I'm thinking of you. I'll keep you in my prayers most def. I hope things get better for you. =\ Sorry you aren't feeling well. I went to the doctor yesterday and he told me OFFICIALLY that I have Type II Diabetes. I'm kind of in shock. I have to lose weight [[excercise 30 min a day]] and really start watching what I eat and check my blood sugar atleast 4 times a day. *sigh*

Anyway...keep your chin up, and again, feel better soon!

*sends hugs your way*
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posted by [identity profile] laurainlimbo.livejournal.com at 02:43am on 15/06/2006
thanks so much Jessica. your hugs and your support help a lot:) unfortunately the last two days I've been feeling worse, rather than better which is discouraging. but I'm giving it a bit more time...

I'm really sorry to hear that you were diagnosed with Diabetes. My uncle has Diabetes, but I'm not sure what type. do take care of yourself and follow your regimens strictly. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts too:)

I think our bodies really give us signs when we need to wake up and start taking care of ourselves. this is a sign for me to relax, eat better, sleep more and be happier and more calm. (easier said than done, right?)

*hugs* you back! take care, hun!!
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posted by [identity profile] xitsmejessica.livejournal.com at 05:10pm on 16/06/2006
I don't know if I've ever told you this, but I have this weird outlook on life. I got it from one of my friends Shelley in high school. Shelley is a really deep thinker, and she and I were inseperable when she was president and I was vice-president of the Thespian society my 11th grade year. She called me "Second Banana." Anyway, Shelley really had a lot of wisdom for me when I was going through all that tough stuff with my car wreck. She said that we had seasons of our lives, some good, some bad. Hmm. She was right. So I came up with my own philosophy. Some seasons are bitter and drawn out like Winter, and some are really short but totally enjoyable like Spring. Some are really pressing and trying, with some good days and some bad days, but overall, pretty memorable like Summer.

And I totally agree. I was in Winter for almost 3 years of my life, and now I feel like I'm in Summertime. Some days are really pressing on me and really humid and heavy and just...totally blah...but some days are...balmy. LMAO. But Summers are always memorable. Something always happens during Summer, something you remember for the rest of your life. I don't think my memorable moment of Summer has happened yet, but when it does, I think I'll definitely know. ;]

I don't know what season you're in now, but my point is this: Seasons don't last forever. And you won't feel this way forever. So keep your chin up.


Much love. <3
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posted by [identity profile] laurainlimbo.livejournal.com at 11:51pm on 16/06/2006
wow - what an amazingly profound and perfect way to look at my life. I guess I'm also in summer now. I'm not depressed at all, but some days are very heavy and blah, and some are great and hopeful. thankfully I haven't been in winter for awhile - though it was when I first got to Japan last year.

thanks for the encouragement and for the great wise outlook. Shelley sounds great! where is she now?
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posted by [identity profile] xitsmejessica.livejournal.com at 03:56pm on 17/06/2006
Shelley is in Milledgeville, Georgia at Georgia College and State University. She and I took voice lessons from the same lady in high school. [[a big black lady that could soul sing like you wouldn't believe! =P]] I see her mom quite a bit, and I always get an update on how Shelley is. She's doing some theatre, but mostly singing in the choirs and stuff like that that the college offers. Her mom is a teacher, so whenever Mum and I would go to like, school functions or whatever with the county system, we'd see Shelley's mom. They're a wonderful family. <3

I've gotta go! I'll talk to you later! Take care!
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posted by [identity profile] daizze.livejournal.com at 10:12am on 14/06/2006
Maybe Dawnie 1970 just needs some space to get her head around the stuff she was going through??

You still sound a lil stressed so your gonna feel tired hun, have the infections cleared? Are you drinking plenty of fluids and eating properly??
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posted by [identity profile] laurainlimbo.livejournal.com at 02:38am on 15/06/2006
I think you're right. I guess I will just wait to hear from her...

I have been stressed, and I wish I could relax and get to feeling better. I have been drinking tons of water, and eating well (except for some cookies at work and some ice cream tonight - LOL the sweet tooth lives!)

to tell the truth, the infections are still hanging around. I called the doctor's office today and they said to give it a couple more days. I have a yeast infection, and they gave me meds for that, but they also gave me antibiotics for something else, which is perpetuating the yeast infection. blech!! I feel terrible, and so drained. I am trying to stay positive though...

thanks so much for your comments:)
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posted by [identity profile] daizze.livejournal.com at 08:32am on 15/06/2006
ooo infections are bad..... bad infections.. bad... bad.. infections leave lil laura alone!!!!


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posted by [identity profile] laurainlimbo.livejournal.com at 11:47pm on 16/06/2006
whatever you did worked - my infections are gone!! but then I got my period. it's always something - so fun being a girl, huh?

then again, I'd never have it any other way...

*hugs*
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posted by [identity profile] daizze.livejournal.com at 07:06pm on 17/06/2006
NNNNNNNNNoooooooo not fair!!
Tell me about it!! But I wouldnt wanna be a guy!!
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posted by [identity profile] laurainlimbo.livejournal.com at 03:17am on 19/06/2006
no way. being a girl is the best. we are so much smarter, and better, and where would the world be without us? Hee!
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posted by [identity profile] daizze.livejournal.com at 11:13am on 19/06/2006
with ya sister!! ha ha ha
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posted by [identity profile] pnksaph.livejournal.com at 07:21am on 15/06/2006
I'm so sorry you're feeling cruddy. ::hugs::

Did Netflix come through with your DVD's today? I hope so.

I miss Dawnie, too. I hope we hear something soon. I'm worried.
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posted by [identity profile] laurainlimbo.livejournal.com at 11:49pm on 16/06/2006
I'm so worried about Dawnie, and I wish she'd write to me. I sent her a card in the mail, and thought that might prompt her, but still not a sign. I don't know what happened...

good thing is I'm feeling better, my husband is super busy making money, and it's the weekend!
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