it's not life that matters but the journey...

Okay, when will this rain ever stop? Its supposed to be like this in June, but really, it might be nice if we could see blue sky. I do admit that the cool weather is nice, though. maybe I shouldn't complain.

i woke up this morning feeling dizzy, like I'd had too much to drink. and I didn't have too much to drink. could be a 24 hour bug, or just the weather. I just wish I had more energy.

I'm not sure how long I can handle this lifestyle. there are not any part time jobs - or even many full time ones, around here, and I can't really even meet most of my friends for about a month. everyone is busy with tests, traveling, work, etc. I do have some offers for help finding jobs, but nothing has happened yet.

things go in cycles, feast or famine, so something has to happen soon, right? maybe I should take advantage of my free time and learn to draw, or read this 500 page book on the Palestinian problem that I checked out from the library. anyone who envies me for having free time . . . don't. I'd rather be slinging burgers at Macdonald's than sitting in the house everyday watching the world go by.