posted by
laurainlimbo at 10:01pm on 09/08/2006
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
this has been a very strange week. I don't know why, but it just is. first of all, I can't believe it's already past the middle of the week and it still feels like Monday. I feel like I'm stuck in a loop that's just going round and round - nothing changes much in my daily life. I wonder if I can change that. I can't believe it's the second week of August. where did time go? it feels like just last month that I left Japan - yet Japan also seems like a big dream. I had meant to do so much writing about Japan, but that idea just got lost like all of my other big ambitions. I plan to change that soon. my evenings and weekends need to be more productive (famous last words), including japanese study, writing, exercise, cooking. I need to be creative. but how do I move from just talk to actuality? that there is the challenge.
last weekend was uninteresting as usual - just did the usual shopping, cleaning, organizing (but not enough of that), and going to Sunday jazz brunch, which we usually try to do. there's a couple different restaurants that have a brunch with free live jazz, which is a nice way to spend a few hours on a Sunday. otherwise there wasn't much going on. I was feeling fine and getting enough rest, and it wasn't hot, which was nice for a change.
but for some reason I woke up on Monday feeling like shit. I was achy all over, and had absolutely not one grain of energy. I just had this overwhelming feeling of malaise, and I couldn't be bothered to go to work. I tried, though. I got up at 7 and made coffee and got some slacks out of the closet. and that is all. with the coffee brewed, I turned around and went back to bed. I couldn't really say that I was sick, in the normal sense of the word. let's just say I was tired, and I just needed a day to "play hooky" and not be in the office. maybe it was irresponsible, but I wanted another day to do nothing. and it was great! I watched the rest of the Twin Peaks first season DVD's (which I have been meaning to watch for a long time), I slept, and I just didn't think about anything. it did refresh me, and it made the return to work on Tuesday so much easier. all the stress from last week was gone - it has been an easy week, and though there are occasional stressful situations, overall I'm not so worried. I'm just going to take it easy and work less overtime - which of course will be easier when my husband finally starts working.
and that should be very soon. after deciding that he no longer wants to be a full time musician, he has been searching for a job with a Japanese company now for three weeks - he's had three interviews so far and two companies already want him and he still has two interviews on Friday, plus a second interview with a company he already interviewed with next Monday.
though I do have moments of missing Japan - the mountains, the ocean, the casual pace, the whole being a foreigner in a foreign land - I am starting to feel like maybe this choice to move back to Chicago was the right thing - finally. of course we don't want to retire here. we hope to make enough money and experience to relocate to a more temperate climate - ideally Hawaii, but realistically???? anything is possible. and while I don't love my job, it is stable for now. and there is still time for me to find something that I do enjoy - if I could only figure out what that is.
well, that's enough rambling. the next post will be media related. if you've stayed with me this long, thanks! a friend who reads rambling LJ posts is a friend indeed.
good night and don't let the bed bugs bite. really.
last weekend was uninteresting as usual - just did the usual shopping, cleaning, organizing (but not enough of that), and going to Sunday jazz brunch, which we usually try to do. there's a couple different restaurants that have a brunch with free live jazz, which is a nice way to spend a few hours on a Sunday. otherwise there wasn't much going on. I was feeling fine and getting enough rest, and it wasn't hot, which was nice for a change.
but for some reason I woke up on Monday feeling like shit. I was achy all over, and had absolutely not one grain of energy. I just had this overwhelming feeling of malaise, and I couldn't be bothered to go to work. I tried, though. I got up at 7 and made coffee and got some slacks out of the closet. and that is all. with the coffee brewed, I turned around and went back to bed. I couldn't really say that I was sick, in the normal sense of the word. let's just say I was tired, and I just needed a day to "play hooky" and not be in the office. maybe it was irresponsible, but I wanted another day to do nothing. and it was great! I watched the rest of the Twin Peaks first season DVD's (which I have been meaning to watch for a long time), I slept, and I just didn't think about anything. it did refresh me, and it made the return to work on Tuesday so much easier. all the stress from last week was gone - it has been an easy week, and though there are occasional stressful situations, overall I'm not so worried. I'm just going to take it easy and work less overtime - which of course will be easier when my husband finally starts working.
and that should be very soon. after deciding that he no longer wants to be a full time musician, he has been searching for a job with a Japanese company now for three weeks - he's had three interviews so far and two companies already want him and he still has two interviews on Friday, plus a second interview with a company he already interviewed with next Monday.
though I do have moments of missing Japan - the mountains, the ocean, the casual pace, the whole being a foreigner in a foreign land - I am starting to feel like maybe this choice to move back to Chicago was the right thing - finally. of course we don't want to retire here. we hope to make enough money and experience to relocate to a more temperate climate - ideally Hawaii, but realistically???? anything is possible. and while I don't love my job, it is stable for now. and there is still time for me to find something that I do enjoy - if I could only figure out what that is.
well, that's enough rambling. the next post will be media related. if you've stayed with me this long, thanks! a friend who reads rambling LJ posts is a friend indeed.
good night and don't let the bed bugs bite. really.
(no subject)
I hope your hubby gets a job soon.
*HUGS*
(no subject)
*hugs* back!
any word on the job? how's the sleeping? I couldn't sleep last night but it was because of my kitty. *sigh*
take care!
(no subject)
(no subject)
take care!
*big hugs*
how's your new place by the way? are you adapting?
(no subject)
(no subject)
It's good you have nice landlords - my apartment is terrible and we want to move soon. but we are renting a furnished place so we need to buy lots of things too. a barren living room is not good:) good luck!!
any chance of pics of the new place?
(no subject)
I'll try to put up some pics of the new place when it's furnished. :-)
(no subject)
*hugs*
(no subject)
But honey i have a police hellicopter hovvering over my house as they have just raided another place round the cornor, terrorist suspected activity. They are looking for liquid/chemical explosives and its a times like these you think, well what was i really worrying over that for!
Im glad that you are maybe on the road to acceptance for for position at the moment, it may change who knows what fate will bring?!!
(no subject)
did they really find terrorists around the corner from you? are you okay? that's really scary.
take care, hon!! thanks for the uplifting words. it's encouraging and great to have friends like I have here:)
(no subject)
I was just trying to get some context, patience is a vertue, its also a bloody nightmare!!!
But I do believe good things come to those that wait..... so when you move to Hawaii can I come too? lol
Yeah they have arrested some people on the road above my house, about 2 mins away, also in another area my side of town, they are searching woods my side of town, all good fun!
We have had the presss around here all day yesterday and the police hellicopter too, what fun am back at work tonight so may find out more, we will probably be on standby I guess??
(no subject)
my problems are big for me, but they're basically the same as most people's: money, future worries, job concerns, relationship issues, etc. and it's all solveable with time and patience and perserverance.
ah, patience - wish I had more, and really wish my husband had some at all.
wow - can't believe they arrested people near your own house. how exciting, if not a little frightening.
did you find out more at work? do tell!!
take care, k? and thanks for your thoughts - I always appreciate them...
(no subject)
(no subject)
or is it all died down now?
(no subject)
They are searching woods and apparently have found stuff!!!
(no subject)
(no subject)
Still a strong police presence in fact from all over the country to help out, helicoptor overhead three times yesterday..... not good!
(no subject)
anyway, keep posting on LJ so we know you are ok!!
(no subject)
some of the stuff was found in my area apparently!!
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
no I don't want to get sick before visiting my sister for her wedding next month - and her baby will be born in December.
(no subject)
The wedding will be invigorating, a change of pace is nice. But yes, I well know what you mean about being tired and burnt out. Life can be a killer. Which is probably why I spend so much time living in my head writing stories, whether I write them down or not. Better then head explosion. And I agree, when hubby is stressed the household is stressed. Bad vibes abound. You are both in my prayers. *hugs* You should do something nice just for yourself hon, just for Laura.
(no subject)
yes the wedding will be great fun - and I haven't seen my parents since April of 2005. I miss them!!
I should do some writing to deal with the stress of life. I just can't turn off the internal editor so whatever I write sounds terrible to me, and I can't keep going. I've done lots of writing but don't like it.
ah, yes, hubby stress does add to the stress of the household. he will be fine if these companies can just make up their minds and if someone would hire him.
hmmm something just for Laura huh? how about a trip to Ireland to visit Cillian? or maybe just a Cillian movie fest...
more realistically I've been downloading tons of music and also supernatural shows... going to watch a couple tonight and watch a movie tomorrow. that's my relaxation!
*BIG HUGS*
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
Hawaii. It's beautiful there. Really, if you ever get a chance to go? Go.
(no subject)
come visit us if we get there someday, k?
I love dreaming...
(no subject)
(no subject)