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laurainlimbo) wrote2006-05-11 10:28 am
laurainlimbo) wrote2006-05-11 10:28 am
just some griping
ah, I'm so tired, and so discouraged. I had a headache after work today from learning so many new things. and I'm tired from walking 20 minutes round trip (that makes about 40 minutes total) each day to and from the train station. 10 minutes to the station, then 10 minutes to the office. my legs are aching. and I still have that pain in my neck - it's just now spread to the rest of my body. the only good thing about all this walking? I'm staying fit and not getting fat! LOL!!
ok - so that's why I'm tired. I'm discouraged because I can think of nothing other than taxes right now. I have a big issue with my 2004 taxes, and have to meet with a tax attorney (maybe H&R Block or something else) to resolve that and re-file - otherwise I might have to pay a large sum of money for a mistake I made! And then I also have to file my 2005 taxes - I have an automatic two month extension since I was in Japan at the time the taxes were due, but I still have to file a request for an additional extension by June 15th. But I don't know how to file for last year because I hardly made any money at all - and I was out of the country for 9 months. I called the IRS customer service number tonight and was transferred to some guy who was supposed to answer my questions about overseas income -I filed overseas income twice when I was working there full time, but this time I hardly made any money so I have tons of questions. I was on the phone with this idiot for about 10 minutes, but he hadn't answered any of my questions - in fact he was just making me more confused, and I could hardly hear him and then all of a sudden my line was disconnected! I couldn't believe it. I don't think he would have hung up on me - and I certainly didn't hang up on him. But after spending all that time, I was pissed off and I didn't call back. I was just too tired. so that means I have to call again tomorrow night. God I hate the IRS!
So I cried when I got off the phone. I'm just too tired and stressed and I wish I could just relax and have nothing to think about. I mean I'm happy to be here, and I'm happy to be working and living in an interesting city. But I've just had too many things to do here in the last two weeks, and I still have so much to do, and to take care of. And I'm lonely... and I've been too tired and stressed to even do any writing or posting of photos - so I feel like I'm already forgetting about Japan. that's terrible.
I sometimes wonder if I made the right decision to come here and leave that carefree existence in Japan. I mean, I didn't have to work, I didn't have to worry about shopping and cooking and cleaning so much, my cat was happy, and I was doing some fun things. So why was I not happy? I don't really know. Though I guess I do know the answer to that question: I was not happy because I was not fulfilled, and I was not independent. I have to keep reminding myself that doing nothing, even though it is nice and relaxing, is not fun. And being independent, though stressful sometimes, is the best way to live.
I just hope I can have some fun here soon - talking to tax people every day, and sleeping alone, is not fun at all! All I do to alleviate my stress these days is watch tv shows that I've downloaded, movies from Netflix, and sleep... if Leo doesn't keep me awake.
Oh, and finally, I miss my cousin Linda. I haven't heard from her in so long, and I'm having withdrawals from not getting her emails. If you read this Linda, please send me an email or a comment, or call me sometime...
sorry for all of my griping, but I do need to vent... so with all of that said, now I am going to watch my movie, "The Girl with the Pearl Earring" and get a nice dosage of good looking English and Irish men...
ok - so that's why I'm tired. I'm discouraged because I can think of nothing other than taxes right now. I have a big issue with my 2004 taxes, and have to meet with a tax attorney (maybe H&R Block or something else) to resolve that and re-file - otherwise I might have to pay a large sum of money for a mistake I made! And then I also have to file my 2005 taxes - I have an automatic two month extension since I was in Japan at the time the taxes were due, but I still have to file a request for an additional extension by June 15th. But I don't know how to file for last year because I hardly made any money at all - and I was out of the country for 9 months. I called the IRS customer service number tonight and was transferred to some guy who was supposed to answer my questions about overseas income -I filed overseas income twice when I was working there full time, but this time I hardly made any money so I have tons of questions. I was on the phone with this idiot for about 10 minutes, but he hadn't answered any of my questions - in fact he was just making me more confused, and I could hardly hear him and then all of a sudden my line was disconnected! I couldn't believe it. I don't think he would have hung up on me - and I certainly didn't hang up on him. But after spending all that time, I was pissed off and I didn't call back. I was just too tired. so that means I have to call again tomorrow night. God I hate the IRS!
So I cried when I got off the phone. I'm just too tired and stressed and I wish I could just relax and have nothing to think about. I mean I'm happy to be here, and I'm happy to be working and living in an interesting city. But I've just had too many things to do here in the last two weeks, and I still have so much to do, and to take care of. And I'm lonely... and I've been too tired and stressed to even do any writing or posting of photos - so I feel like I'm already forgetting about Japan. that's terrible.
I sometimes wonder if I made the right decision to come here and leave that carefree existence in Japan. I mean, I didn't have to work, I didn't have to worry about shopping and cooking and cleaning so much, my cat was happy, and I was doing some fun things. So why was I not happy? I don't really know. Though I guess I do know the answer to that question: I was not happy because I was not fulfilled, and I was not independent. I have to keep reminding myself that doing nothing, even though it is nice and relaxing, is not fun. And being independent, though stressful sometimes, is the best way to live.
I just hope I can have some fun here soon - talking to tax people every day, and sleeping alone, is not fun at all! All I do to alleviate my stress these days is watch tv shows that I've downloaded, movies from Netflix, and sleep... if Leo doesn't keep me awake.
Oh, and finally, I miss my cousin Linda. I haven't heard from her in so long, and I'm having withdrawals from not getting her emails. If you read this Linda, please send me an email or a comment, or call me sometime...
sorry for all of my griping, but I do need to vent... so with all of that said, now I am going to watch my movie, "The Girl with the Pearl Earring" and get a nice dosage of good looking English and Irish men...
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as far as feeling "odd" when I went to Japan, I can't remember so much. Of course things were different, but it was so much slower and easier since I had my husband to help with things and I didn't have to take care of so many things. I know I'll be feeling more comfortable soon - and hopefully Leo will too:)
Ah - the Girl with the Pearl Earring - I remember you saying you didn't like it, but I had such high expectations since it has Colin Firth, Cillian Murphy and Scarlett (who I really like most of the time). But to be honest, I was disappointed by it. I thought it was slow, and it ended kind of abruptly - I was like "that's it?" and totally expecting more. Oh well. but Colin Firth was kind of hot in that movie - and Cillian was cute! no one really talked much, though. I didn't give it a second viewing (as I do with movies I really like)...
was Picasso hot? I don't know much about his life.
thanks again for your comments. You made me laugh, which was great!!
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...in my opinion, anyway. LoL. I know tons about Picasso. Just ask! =P We were discussing him tonight in art class, Cubism and stuff like that, and the stupid pooface teacher kept messing up...and I kept correcting him. POOFACE. Finally, I told him "Uhhh...it's in the book." and he said, "Is that where you're getting this from?" and I said "No...actually, I know all of this already...but uh...we ARE on chapter 19..." and he got his book out of his stupid brown leather briefcase and opened it up.
POOFACE!
You're very right...the movie was really quiet. When it was over, I was like, "...and? ...AND?" I had high expectations as well. I would've liked to have seen the relationship with Vermeer and Griet develop more. Colin Firth radiates with sensuality to me, especially in this movie, and also in "Pride and Prejudice." *fans self* I refuse to watch the recent version, because I am so enamored with the Colin Firth version. We studied it senior year, and all of us girls [[even Mrs Styers, the teacher]] were just swooning over him. LMAO. "Ohhh, Mr Darcy...!"
Scarlett's best role is in "Ghost World." It's just a natural role and she doesn't try so hard, like in "Girl with the pearl earring." It also has a fave of mine, Thora Birch. I've mentioned her before, I think...I used to want to be her character. LMAO. The red patent leather Doc Martens are homage to Birch's character in "Ghost World." AWESOME MOVIE.
How's Leo? I hope things will improve...I really think they will. Just take deep breaths! =P Did you check out those links I gave you?
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those are some cool pics of Picasso. I've never seen pictures of him when he was young - he was handsome!
Colin Firth is really beautiful - and I absolutely adored his version of "Pride and Prejudice" - that is the only version as far as I'm concerned. gorgeous Mr.Darcy - and I loved the girl who played Elizabeth. she was beautiful and so classy. not like that mousy Keira Knightly.
Have you seen Lost in Translation? that is my favorite of Scarlett's roles - she is perfect in it! She's pretty good in Match Point too - and the Island (which has hot Ewan McGregor!)...