the colors around us [it's not life that matters but the journey...]

got this from

dawnie1970 - it's interesting, so read it:)

RED
1. Closest red thing to you: a ballpoint pen
2. Last thing to make you angry: the people I work with
3. Do you have a temper: sometimes
4. Are you a fan of romance: yes when I'm happy in love

ORANGE
1. Closest orange thing to you: guitar pick
2. Do you like to burn things: just candles
3. Dress up for Halloween: not recently, but I would if I Had an opportunity
4. Are you usually a warm-hearted person: Yes
5. Do you have anything against redheaded people: no
6. Are you usually full of energy: not often enough, but I try:)

YELLOW
1. Closest yellow thing: a file folder
2. The happiest time[s] of your life: when I was in college
3. Favorite holiday: Halloween
4. Are you a coward: only about certain things, like darkness and crazy people
5. Do you burn or tan: I burn

GREEN
1. Closest green thing to you: my coffee mug
2. Do you care about the environment: absolutely!
3. Are you jealous of anyone right now: only my sister because she has everything she wants, including a baby (but it's more happiness for her than jealousy really)
4. Are you a lucky person: no
5. Do you always want what you can’t have: not at all
6. Do you like being outdoors: I love it!
7. Are you Irish: a very little, yes

BLUE
1. Closest blue thing to you: my sofa cover
2. Are you good at calming people down: I try to be
3. Do you like the sea: I love the sea and want to live near it
4. What was the last thing that made you cry: I cry all the time - but probably when I watched "Babel"
5. Are you a logical thinker: not really
6. Can you sleep easily: I have trouble falling asleep, but once I'm out, I'm good:)

PURPLE
1. Last purple thing you saw: blueberry yogurt
2. Like being treated to expensive things: I don't care about expensive things
3. Do you like mysterious things: I love them! Mysteries rule my world
4. Favorite type of chocolate: all, but especially dark -- chocolate rules my world too!
5. Ever met anyone in royalty: no but I've met famous people - does that count?
6. Are you creative: I like to think so

PINK
1. Closest pink thing to you: my sweatshirt
2. Do you like sweet things: Yes, I'm a big sweet tooth!
3. Like play-fighting: no
4. Are you sensitive: extremely
5. Do you like music: Yes, very much - and all types!

WHITE
1. Closest white thing to you: the paper in the printer
2. Would you say you’re innocent: no - but I wish I was
3. Good at keeping the peace: yes
4. Do you like to play in the snow: I love it if I don't have to go anywhere
5. Are you afraid of going to the doctor or dentist: I hate the dentist - and I hate needles!

BLACK
1. Closest black thing to you: the speakers on my computer
2. Ever enjoy hurting people: absolutely NOT
3. Are you sophisticated or silly: I'm both - definitely both
4. Would you like to go to space: I would love it - when can I sign up?
5. What is your favorite color: green
6. Does the color you wear affect your mood: no

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Interesting meme! Omg dark chocolate is definitely the best kind. *nodnod*

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absolutely! thanks!!

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Aweshuuuuuuum. I plan on taking this meme, but it's too long for me to take right now. I'm too lazy. LOL.

aww, it only took me like 10 minutes. you should try it:) I know how you feel though - some memes are like 80 questions long - who has that much free time? LOL!

Oh, that's a cool meme! :D

Do you burn or tan: I burn

Me, too! I can turn boiled lobster red in minutes if I'm not careful! O_O Ouchie! :(

Mmm, chocolate! I love dark chocolate best of all, too! (Though I've never been known to turn down any sort of chocolate! Lol! ;) ) *hugs!* ♥

hehe chocolate of any kind is fine by me too. my mom said she bought some Godiva chocolate yesterday and it was worth the $2.00 for each tiny piece!

ah, I tanned when I was young, but the last time my skin saw sun, I was red, then I peeled and had this uneven burn/pale skin that was just horrid. spray on tans are the way to go! LOL!

*hugs*

I have trouble falling sleep too! its like my body wants to rest but my brain keeps working 24/7 XP

yup - that's totally what happens to me - the brain is working out problems and i worry too much:(

so I live for weekends when I can just sleep anytime:)

Needles! *cries and rocks under desk*

*hugs* You'll have kids someday sweetie. You are going to make a great mom!

oh I hope so - I am starting to feel achy whenever I see babies:) my husband still doesn't want them though so we are going to have to make a big decision in the future...

*sigh*

I wonder why my life can't be easier

*hugs*

Why doesn't your husband want a baby? And money isn't a good reason, no one ever has enough money, except maybe the Trumps. *hugs* :\

I wish I could explain it without making my husband seem like a bad person. he is really a good person, and I love him. But the thing about him is that he is childish and has somewhat of a Peter Pan complex. He doesn't want the grown up responsibilities that come with adulthood. My sister said he's narcissistic, which is somewhat true but not in the vain sense (she has experience with someone like my husband - a past boyfriend - and she went to therapists and learned a lot). Masahiko really has a hard time thinking of anyone but himself - that is, he can't imagine living his life for someone else (like a wife, or child), and making the sacrifices necessary to be a parent. He can't see it as a fun and enriching experience (sharing your life or living your life for someone else). I asked him again last night why he is so opposed to having a child, and he said he doesn't want to spend his life stuck at some company making money. He knows that day care costs money, and other things, and he selfishly wants to spend his time and money on himself. AT the same time, he acts like I should take care of him and he thinks we'll always be together, even though he can't give me this one thing that I really want. honestly it's such a hard situation because I know Masahiko loves me, and he seems to think we'll never break up (even though he often is angry with me and with his life). But should I sacrifice my happiness to stay with him? And if I leave him, will I be able to meet someone else and have a family, given that I'm almost 40 years old? and I hate the idea of saying goodbye to Masahiko for good because we are so close and have a history. But he is just so unhappy and I can't live with an unhappy person.

I just don't know and it keeps me awake at night and makes me suffer so much.

sorry for such a long answer, but i was gonna post something about this (in a filtered post) anyway, so I thought I'd share it with you.
*hugs tight*

I wish I had good advice, but all I can really say is that you have to think of yourself first, protect yourself and your needs. What he wants doesn't make him a bad person at all, or that he doesn't deserve to be happy, everyone is happy in their own way, but it has to mesh with someone you share your life with. I would think he would reconsider knowing it is causing you pain, obviously loving someone means you don't want them to suffer. And obviously I'm not saying do it, because it is deceitful, but what if you just got pregnant, he'd have to accept it, right? Sometimes things don't always go as planned. *heavy sigh* I hate that you are unhappy, you are truly a good person and you don't deserve to be on any level. *big hugs*

thanks for your great reply. you're right about everything - I do have to think about myself, and that is why I'm planning to do this paralegal thing and at least protect my financial future. and what you said about just getting pregnant, believe me I've thought about it many times. but unfortunately it's not that easy. he really safeguards against my getting pregnant and sadly we don't have a hot sex life like we did when we first got married. I think if it's meant to happen, it will. and if I can't stand it not having a baby, then I will find a way to have one. even if I have to adopt one:)

thanks for being a great friend and always listening:)

*big hugs* back!

*hugs and kisses* ♥

it's not life that matters but the journey...

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